“Behind every tear, there may be joy. Behind every smile, there may be pain. Don’t judge.”
Here it goes: What goes around, comes around.
So this is how it feels. Worrying for someone, walking around everywhere in the middle of the night to look for someone, heart-aching seeing the elderly following you around… I’ve let them do this for me before. And now, is it payback time? When I was the missing person before, all I thought of was me myself and I. What can I do to make the pain stop, what should I do to turn back time, should I continue calling someone who doesn’t even give a shit, how can I die without pain. CRAP. STUPID. Fucking selfish. Now that Karma is here. I am thinking, what if something happened? What am I gonna do? God please be there with him. I’ve learnt my lesson. Please keep everyone I love, safe. Let it be me.
I cannot afford to see any of my pillars of strength fall now. I.. am not strong.. enough. Is this the reason for the urge to come home? Please, no. Ever since that incident, I’ve been following what my heart tells me to do despite how ridiculous things are. But I really cannot handle this. Let it be me. Dear God.
